Making the Impossible Work

When we say things are impossible, it implies that they can't be overcome. I like to think that almost nothing is impossible. That's also a very good mindset to have when your husband is in the Army. I've been called upon to make decisions that really, I always felt were way out of my league. Like when I had to decide whether to have Gav's open heart surgery in Hawaii or in California while my husband was living with Afghani villagers. Afghani villagers don't have phones, or TV, or internet. Neither did any of the soldiers. Oh, and no one from his company bothered to notify the wives that their husbands were stranded and living with villagers. I had to make that decision myself and it was not easy let me tell you.

These kinds of situations call on us to make decisions that really, there is no training for--there is no preparing for them, sometimes, there aren't even any good answers. Then I have to step back and remember that I am not in control of any of this. The good Lord is always standing by to help with these seemingly insurmountable decisions--I just have to stop, take a deep breath and open myself to His guidance. When everything in your life is spiraling out of your control, stopping to regroup is not an easy thing. It also doesn't mean that you hand things over to the Lord and stop trying. The Lord helps those that help themselves. So here I am. Years ago I accepted the Lord as my Savior; today I still struggle between my own stubbornness and remembering to listen for the Lord's guidance. I have to humble myself before the Lord so that he knows I want to listen, to follow. He gives me the strength to carry on, to hope, and to stand strong. I'm going to need it.